zeldathemes
-FLATBEAR-

Notorious arter and reader of comics.

This is mainly an Marvel Comics/movies + Lord of the Rings art blog with a slight smattering of Game of Thrones, Parks and Recreation, Community and more.

I am always happy to answer any asks sent my way!

This blog is occasionally NSFW and NOT spoiler-free. If you ever need me to tag anything, trigger or otherwise, please let me know!

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hah oh my god I am so angry.

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  #personal shit    #uggghhhhhhhh fml    #I am so angry    #AND STILL SICK  
Hot tea with honey and homemade chicken dumpling soup? *holds out cup and bowl* miracle cure, promise.

Anonymous

I can do the hot tea and honey :) Unfortunately a loathing of chicken soup and various and sundry food allergies keep me from the second part, but marchingjaybird wife has promised me vegetable soup tonight, so here’s hoping!

I’d eat this chicken tho.

  #personal shit    #Anonymous    #flatbearasks  

Week and a half until ACE. The biggest day of my year. The convention of which I am a co-organizer. Week and a half.

AND I AM SO SICK. I am SO. SICK. Like barely get out of bed sick. SICK. SO. SICK.

this is not at all an appropriate gif but this is the only one I have on the work computer…

EVERYTHING’S COMING UP FLATBEAR!

  #personal shit    #so sick    #sick as balls    #sick as a sick kick flip  

Ugh I miss playing the button accordion. I had to leave mine in New Zealand as it weighed AS MUCH AS A FULL GROWN ELEPHANT and I couldn’t bring it on the plane.

Weird hobby. I know. But I miss the sound of it :(

  #personal shit    #button accordion yeah    #who knew  

You ever have one of those days where you want to kick and scream and break things and burn everything you own and just start over again?

ugh I’m so sick of feeling so angry all the time this cannot be good for me ><

feh.

  #personal shit  

Man. So I have a Carol postcard and a Carol sticker ready for Heroescon. I have a print in the works, but in order to finish it in time, I’m going to have to force myself through it and I’m not going to be happy with it.

I can take some time to work on it after and offer it online, and have it for the Asheville Comic Expo in September…but I’d really like to have it ready for Heroes.

But there’s also a giant cosplay to get done.

And I’m so desperately over drawing right now…

DECISIONS. FLAMES. ON THE SIDE OF MY FACE.

  #venting    #personal shit  

Hey kids! I have a neeeeew email address! Because I’m an adult now!

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Hopefully this isn't rude, but if you are sexually attracted to some dudes (a "rubbish lesbian," as you say), why not just identify as bisexual? That seems more fitting to your tumblr persona at least. Not trying to be rude, just genuinely curious :)

Anonymous

Because I’m not Bisexual.

Look at it this way: I believe in physical attraction, emotional attraction, and romantic attraction.

I am physically attracted to some men. I don’t want to have sex with them, but my body responds in a manner that I would consider physical attraction. 

I am emotionally attracted to some men. There are some men that I like to think about, that I enjoy seeing, that I take pleasure in reading about.

I am romantically attracted to women. I only want to be in relationships with women. There is literally nothing about a relationship with a man that I find appealing. It’s not for me.

To put it simply, I’m gay, not blind. I can look at some men and act as though I am attracted to them. But it doesn’t redefine my sexuality in any way. I am a lesbian, I identify as a lesbian, and to be honest, commenting on the relative attractiveness of men doesn’t change that at all.

I am what I say I am.

I know you weren’t trying to be rude, and thank you for phrasing your question politely. But honestly, my lengthy answer boils down to ‘because I say so.’ I, myself, am not trying to be rude. Gender and sexual identity are very touchy subjects for me, and it makes me uncomfortable to have either questioned. I promise, after 15 years of knowing that I am 100% gay, I haven’t been waiting for someone to correct me into bisexuality.

I just…am who I am. I’m me. I’m Flatbear.

  #I feel like I'm going to lose some followers for this    #I'm not trying to be rude or defensive    #this is a deeply personal subject and I would be doing myself a disservice if I didn't answer it honestly    #I had to go back through this and edit out all of the passive arguing and apologies    #because.....I'm sick of having to validate and explain who I am    #also the term rubbish lesbian is hilarious    #so    #personal shit    #Anonymous    #flatbearasks  

jeeze I’m sick for one day and bossman posts a bunch of pictures of himself playing with the new Kaiju figures we got in.

GIMME MY TRESSPASSER!

  #personal shit    #at least I have amazing and delicious veggie noodle soup    #with ginger and squash mmmm  

What I expected today: Go to work early, draw for two hours, have a lovely day catching up with bossman after the weekend, unpack new Pacific Rim figures (hopefully), and work on replying to ACE artists.

What I got: Full on celiacs attack and everything that comes with it: digestive smaug, migraines, aching joint pain, mood swings, et al.

So do I draw and draw and draw now before the arthritic pain sets in and I can’t hold my pen? Or do I wait and see how bad it gets and hope that I get some work done?

Blurgh.

  #personal shit    #celiacs    #gluten allergy    #one would think that saying 'NO GLUTEN' would imply that I didn't want any gluten    #but maybe someone assumed (again) that this was some bullshit lifestyle choice and not a fucking awful medical condition    #and thought 'naaaaahhhh a little gluten won't kill ya'    #MY STOMACH THANKS YOU SIR  

Cut for all the shit that’s been coming up against me lately. A lot of stream-of-thought rambling and bitching and getting all the bad feels out because it SERIOUSLY HELPS TO DEAL WITH THIS SHIT! Warnings for PTSD, depression, graphic descriptions of dislocation, leg injuries, surgery, and all of the other fun parts of life.

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  #personal shit    #bullshit    #ranting    #trigger warnings    #tw    #ptsd    #post traumatic stress disorder    #depression    #injury    #dislocations    #surgery    #graphic descriptions of injury    #leg injuries    #cultural appropriation    #and all of that other fun stuff  

blargh blargh blargh

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  #personal shit    #the creative process in all of its glory    #it's mostly just me throwing tantrums at the computer and occasionally art comes out  

I have a stack of new followers from Jaegercon, so here is some babbling about me! Before I start the daily arting.

1. The meaning behind my URL: It’s taken from a very porny comic. That’s it. BUT IT HAS GROWN INTO SOMETHING INSANE.

2. Weakness: Physical? Two fake knees. But my other weakness is trashy reality tv often about toddlers in or and tiaras.
3. Who is my best friend: I don’t really have best friends, I just have different kinds of friends. Marchingjaybird is my partner, feels-like-fire and mary-stormborn are my sisters, dragonklaw82 is my jaeger co-pilot, lamentforboromir is my child my boss is like a brother that I love and want to punch at the same time, and I have a dozen partners in crime….
4. Last time I cried and why: Yesterday. Over a pair of fucking fictional Australian robot pilots. What the hell has happened to me.
5. Piercings I have:: Currently: 0 plugs in each ear and a ring in my lower lip. Previously: Upper lip, 3x nose, eyebrow, subdermal chest bars, others. I was one of those kids.
6. Favorite Band: Queens of the Stone Age.
7. Biggest turn off(s): Someone who inserts themselves into the conversations other people are having. Someone who makes assumptions about me based on gender and age. Someone who feels like they need to prove their nerd credentials by rattling off everything they know/every piece of merchandise they have collected.
8. Top 5 foods: French fries. Carrot Cake. Baked Potatoes. Good fried rice. Gummy coke bottles.
9. Tattoos I want: GD 34s on each shoulder, this page as a half sleeve, something Carol Danvers I have yet to decide on, and arohanui with Tui feathers for my aunt and my whanau. Oh and something big and stupid on my back which I will never describe until it is done…
10. Biggest turn on(s): Not taking yourself too seriously. The desire to learn about the things I love. Curves like a stack of watermelons.
11. Age: 27 holy jeez when did that happen.
12. Ideas of a perfect day: Snowing, wrapped in blankets on the couch with my girl and my cats, eating comfort food and watching a good movie. Alternatively: going out to lunch with my bros on a sunday, then heading back to the apartment for a movie, some Cards Against Humanity, or a round of some tabletop game.
13. Life goal(s): To be a published artist, to tell my stories, to know who I am and be happy with it.
14. Piercings I want: I’m good.
15. Relationship status: With my lady for almost nine years. Married in the fact that I don’t believe some old white dude gets to tell me whether I’m married or not. If you’re with the same person for almost a decade, you can call yourselves whatever the fuck you want to.
16. Favorite movie: Excluding Pacific Rim: Mary Poppins, Muppet Treasure Island, The Rocketeer, and the Back to the Future Trilogy.
17. A fact about my life: Eight years ago I packed up my entire life, left my friends and family, flew from New Zealand to America with the intention of living with someone I had fallen in love with, and had never met in person. It was the bravest, most reckless, stupidest and most important thing I have ever done, and I love her so much. Aw gay.
18. Phobia: Slippery surfaces.
19. Habits: Scratching, twitching, tapping pens, biting everything in existence. Listening to music constantly. Counting words my clicking my teeth together. Crackling my knuckles.
20. Tattoos I have: A big oval banner on my left shoulder that reminds me to put one foot infront of the other, every day, even if my legs don’t work the way other people’s do.
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babble

Okay so you guys, if you’ve been following me for a while, know that I have some semi-major post traumatic issues because of ~injuries. One of the things I deal with because of this is short term memory loss. Most of  the time it sucks and is confusing.

BUT TODAY WAS REALLY ROUGH AND SO I’M FORGETTING A LOT TONIGHT AND IT’S AWESOME BECAUSE I DON’T REMEMBER ANY OF THE SHIT I GOT AT THE GROCERY STORE. MY ENTIRE NIGHT HAS BEEN ‘OH MY GOD I HAVE MUFFINS WHEN DID I GET CHIPS WHAT THE FUCK WHERE DID THIS BAG OF M&MS COME FROM.’

  #personal shit    #ptsd    #it's not always bad    #sometimes you just make the best of it!  
&#8216;Relationships are like goblins. You have to kick them a lot and practice constant vigilance so that they don&#8217;t shit all over everything you love.&#8217;

Wow that might be the most accurate thing ever. It&#8217;s true, too. I know a lot of people see Mary and I as some kind of relationship ideal, an example of how gay and nerdy can work out well. It&#8217;s INCREDIBLY flattering and just lovely, but for real, you guys see the finished product.
 
We argue, but we never fight, BECAUSE we argue. We talk. Even if we (mary) don&#8217;t want to, one of us (me) will force the other (mary) to talk until we&#8217;re on the same page (crazy for real insanity sex) again. You have to talk, and you have to be honest, I cannot stress that enough.
 
I think the reason why we work is because we dated online for a year before we even met, and babies, trust me when I tell you this, when you date someone long-distance? ALL YOU HAVE IS TRUST. There&#8217;s no better (and sadly, rarer) foundation to build a relationship on.

Relationships are like goblins. You have to kick them a lot and practice constant vigilance so that they don’t shit all over everything you love.’

Wow that might be the most accurate thing ever. It’s true, too. I know a lot of people see Mary and I as some kind of relationship ideal, an example of how gay and nerdy can work out well. It’s INCREDIBLY flattering and just lovely, but for real, you guys see the finished product.

 

We argue, but we never fight, BECAUSE we argue. We talk. Even if we (mary) don’t want to, one of us (me) will force the other (mary) to talk until we’re on the same page (crazy for real insanity sex) again. You have to talk, and you have to be honest, I cannot stress that enough.

 

I think the reason why we work is because we dated online for a year before we even met, and babies, trust me when I tell you this, when you date someone long-distance? ALL YOU HAVE IS TRUST. There’s no better (and sadly, rarer) foundation to build a relationship on.

  #babbling    #personal shit    #marchingjaybird